Heroin Addiction & Recovery Blog

I woke up this morning and as usual to my radio alarm clock which never quite picks up a signal so most days I wake up to Radio 1 and a load of crackling white noise chuck on a few pairs of socks, joggers and jumpers depending on how cold it is and off out to go and get my daily dose of methadone which keeps me from becoming ill and unable to function like the rest of society do.

Once I had gone out and come back home I started work writing laptop product reviews for my new US product review site and once I had written up the first product review my thought pattern suddenly changed to the state my life is in and how I ended up messing up pretty much everything and how I became the one thing I always said I would never become a fully blown heroin addict in most of society’s eyes a low life worthless junkie. The only difference is I am now currently putting my life back together piece by piece day by day. I hate lost lots of my friends most of them due to my own desicion as when the heroin took over they would go round slagging me off and when I started to sort myself out suddenly they want to talk and be mates again. I took it upon myself to weed out all those who I now call traitors and not true friends. Yes it has left me with very few friends but at least the people I now associate with have always been there and never turned there back like the other did.

Whilst all of these thoughts were racing around in my mind it kept coming to me that I want to drive again and that I should use getting my license back as a key motivation point and although it has only been a month the words “I’m taking control of my life and getting back on track and keeping things that way” is how I am going to live my life from now on. Cannibis is going to be the only mind altering substance I will be using yes you can say I am swapping my addictions but when you have struggled with heroin dabbled with crack and rely on 75 ml of methadone each day to keep away full blown withdrawals at bay smoking a joint after finishing my website/internet marketing work is just the same at that bottle of beer glass of wine or whiskey and coke businessmen and women all over the world come home to.

I always believed I could get clean and it was never that I wanted to stay injecting or using hard drugs ie heroin and crack (usually mixed up as a snowball) it was more I felt I had nothing better to do that I was going or heading no where and I might as well enjoy the buzz I now feel ready to grab my life put it back into order and work my hardest everyday till my addiction has been well and truly destroyed and my business has taken off.

I can’t quite describe what came over me today all I can say is I had strong motivating thoughts which sparked the creativity to write this piece for my heroin addiction/recovery diary. This blog has helped me so many times to speak my mind without facing criticism, opposite opinions and so on. Even if you go back to day one of when I started writing this blog I never had any plan to ever stop writing even if I beat my addiction 100% I will still write the good and bad from my life as well as offering support to anyone who wants support.