Heroin Addiction & Recovery Blog

For once I’ve actually been able to stay away from heroin and crack and even on my payday I managed to resist and just got stoned smoking weed instead. I come across so many people who say I am just swapping one drug for another which yeah is true if you look at it in black and white terms. You have to look at the bigger picture to understand the reasoning behind my actions in this case. Smoking weed has been the one drug which caused the least amount of shit in my life I’m not saying it hasn’t caused me any problems mainly de-motivation, on/off paranoia perhaps even a big part into going onto use almost every drugs from A, B and C class and even various prescription pills. It’s only when you compare the damage cocaine, MDMA, speed, ketamine and finally heroin and crack have done and still were until I found my new motivation to really put my effort into it because although I had not slipped back I was not doing too great either.

I am still working on my websites and internet marketing while smoking weed and in many ways I personally think being stoned does not affect my work because it’s not like I’m really high giggling it just makes me feel relaxed rather then my usual on edge and that horrible feeling of having money in my pocket and thinking about the drug I could buy weed takes all that away and I can put my all into my work.

Moving on from that side of life I went out to get my weed and tobacco and so on when I got paid and just as I came out the shop my weak ankle gave way and I fell over or more like my  ankle just gave way under me and I really hurt it had to ring a taxi and go straight home. I have had a few times where it has gone and it is always very painful to the point of going all red and having a hot flash where I feel like I’m going to faint there and then and this was the same only 10 times worse then I have ever had it before. So I got in the taxi got home and put this runners cooling bandage for running sprains and injuries and it worked well but I only had 2 which last 2 hours each but I was feeling comfortable at least.

After 2 days of limping around and staying in my whole ankle is bruised black looks like I had coloured my ankle in with a black pen.